Jun 25, 2005

The one with the rain

I love the rain. There's something about the coldness of the night that reminds me of countless memories of my life. Some I wish to reminisce and some I'd rather forget or both...
Let's start with the part I wish to forget:
I had a bad day. I was going home after work when this guy, a stranger, walked up to me and shared his umbrella. He didn't know that the rain comforts me. It's like the bestfriend I lost which comes back again and again when I need someone to be there when there's none. I don't care that my hair is dripping while they're comfortably dry with their umbrella. I don't care if my favorite bag is soaking wet and my 2-inch heeled shoes is about to slide in the pavement. I have the rain to embrace and wash away the sadness at that time.
I looked at him and thought to myself, "What a guy. Who would be kind enough to share an umbrella in this weather when everyone's rushing to go home and tackles everyone who dares to cut their way to the bus or taxi?" He did. He stopped and asked me if I wanted to share in his black umbrella. I was stunned. Speechless. I shook my wet head.
Darn. There goes my logical head. Don't talk to strangers. I noticed the feeling of rejection in him. He immediately rushed to get a ride on the next bus that stopped to avoid me. He must be thinking,"Go get wet. Who the hell cares?"
The snobbish me strikes again.
Okay, here's the part I kept remembering too.
College. My friend & I were in school and finally decided to go home after debating whether to go watch a movie or hang out at my place. We went ahead and ran in the rain towards my building. We didn't care that we're both soaking wet and that the wind kept blowing us back.
He was my 2nd longtime crush. The friend I can count on for all the ups and downs. I tell him almost anything under the sun. Once I even remembered asking him a weird question.
"Do you think I'm cold?" He just looked at me like I'm from Mars.
Then sincerely he answered, "No. It's just in your head." I don't know why but there's something in his eyes that I can't read.
I can just imagine him thinking, "Yeah you are. What's up with you? Why are you so cynical? Why are you such a man-hater? Not all men are two-timers and jerks."
I confided everything in him except the fact that I am falling for his stupidity, his corny jokes, his sarcasm, and most of all his thoughtfulness. I mean, why ruin the friendship? I'm young then; I didn't know I'd regret this for a long time until now.
We headed towards the lobby. While laughing, I noticed that he was looking at me differently. I asked him if I looked like crazy. He said it's nothing, it's just that my hair still looks great even though we got wet outside. I stared back at him with a puzzled look on my face.
Then the elevator opened and reality came back. He teased me about other stuff and forgot what he said entirely.
It's a cheesy moment. Something I wish to forget although it's happy. Because it doesn't matter how many times I replay that scene in my head.
The moment passed and the fact still remains that I never had the chance to tell him that once in my life I felt what it was like to be in love.

Jun 13, 2005

The one with quotes

-Quotes fr Rule of Four-
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I went out to the battlefield to see my tree and I couldn't
-Have you ever felt that sometimes you've done everything yet your efforts are useless? You keep smiling despite this big hole inside because whatever happens you don't want a certain person to know that he's affecting every part of your day or better yet ruining it without even uttering a single word. He's simply there; you're somewhere else-- but the effect lasts for a week. Or a month. Or a year.
I can't listen to music
-Every song you can hear in your computer, in the car, in a restaurant reminds you of a specific memory. As hard as you try to imagine erasing him in the hard drive of your dreams or during sleep, it kept popping out of nowhere. Leaving you awake all night, or worse - all day and night.
I feel like I'm dazed half the time
-It's nobody's fault but your own. You tossed and turned in bed but the unknown emotions kept returning. The more you try to push it away, the more it haunts you. You were left with no choice but to go over it again and again until you get tired of thinking. You fall asleep but the nightmare comes back when you wake up and all you can think of is: I should've confronted this long ago, but then again if would've been insane.

Jun 7, 2005

The one with Kwon Sang Woo

Kwon Sang Woo
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Kwon Sang Woo played the role of every girl's dream man in Stairway To Heaven. He was the guy who was willing to give up everything for the girl he loves. He gave up his position as President of the company, his credit cards, his car and left his family to be with her. He 's the knight in shining armor riding the horse on his way to the castle to save her from the unknown dangers. (Just my overactive imagination at work)

Is his character in this TV series just a myth or reality?

Statistically, men who are most likely to grow up like him is between 1%-5%. Men who belong in this category have the possibility to change depending on the circumstances. Some of them might die. Few could be workaholics. The others can get some other girl pregnant. The rest could be gay.

Basically, this narrows it down to 1% among all of them who could potentially be the STH kind of guy.

I adore this guy. I would give up my so-called career to find him. Is it a sin to wish to find someone as simple as he is? I'm not asking for wealth or fame or beauty...it's just a guy who knows how girls want to be treated. Someone who knows she's not too fragile to be left alone and not too strong to be on her own toes all the time.
Someone who would let her go if she yearns for freedom, who will hold on even if she lets go of his hands because he knows it's not the end until he lets go of her.

This could be the reason why I can't find the right one.

It's either I'm looking in all the wrong places or they're almost extinct.