The one with the first day of freedom

I'm finally free from being a slave of my company! Hooray!

To celebrate it, my bestfriend and I are going to Cebu.....our first trip together outside our safe worlds.

To be honest, I'm really excited about it...on all of my trips (usually w/ a family member/relatives), this is the first time that I packed the day prior to my flight with a checklist in hand to make sure I don't forget anything. 10% of me is a bit nervous-- well, because both of us are not big fans of "directions".

I'm sure we'll get past it though, because we're blessed with luck and a great deal of patience. And of course, a lot of excitement is running through our veins so whatever happens, I'll just cross my fingers and hope for the best!

Wish us luck! ☺

The one with the commendation from a stranger

I'd love to do a kangaroo-jump right now. I can't-- so let's just settle with that little picture as a visual aid. It had been a long time since I was insanely HAPPY.

Well, I'm a simple person who can be pleased by simple things. Whoever said that money can't buy happiness is a genius.

I received a commendation from a stranger that I've talked to for an hour about the installation of a security software on his PC. I honestly don't know what I'm doing but it somehow worked and he asked to speak to my boss about it. I didn't even notice the time because while I was waiting for him (almost the entire time), I was chatting with a friend of mine at work about the usual stuff -- meaning: the latest gossips about who resigned, how many hours will be required for OT, who dates who, who ruined your day and who made you smile like a cat when he walked your way.

Another big surprise, a guy from work posted a big smile to me on the general chat tab. Well, it was noted right after I made a "hate" remark about my missing personal drive because I am a damsel in distress without it (or rather all of the content of the precious drive). I transform into a mad woman when I can't find the toll free number for this and that in a minute so it's not very hard to imagine. Time is valued greatly in my line of work so every minute counts, even seconds!

The last surprise was...

I saw him while my friend (same one that I've been chatting with earlier) and I are waiting for a cab. My ever-lucky friend saw him first; he smiled at us and I guess I almost froze where I was standing because I looked like a stressed workaholic waving my cigarette in the air in mid-sentence. I almost lost my composure and memory while I was telling a horrific tale (from one of my unavoidable calls) to my friend.

He's nice and helpful at work (it's his duty and obligation to help us when necessary given his position) but I don't really like him because he looks arrogant and self-absorbed. When I saw him with his friends (creepy guys) in the elevator, he looks like he's part of their gang. They're the type of guys who can undress you with a wink. He fits the part- he's bald and has a goatee. No offense to those people who look like him but this is a simple observation of a simple girl.

DISCLAIMER: I'm not saying that all guys who are bald and has a goatee are evil. I don't discriminate people based from looks- let's just say, this is my initial impression of him based from his physical appearance and their behavior at work. I am not a judgmental person. I'm a great believer of people having their own good qualities concealed and buried on their inner being. It may only require a lot of digging for some but it's always there to be discovered in due time.

Let's move along...

In addition, I'm no longer late for work for the last couple of days -- a vast improvement on my very appealing attendance record. This calls for a celebration. My cellphone's ringing and friends kept texting me to come over and have a drink but I'm almost asleep so I'll book that for the next earliest opportunity. Okay, I forgot I'm so thirsty...

My aunt called and being the tech support gal in the family, I always help her with her internet connection. I adore her deeply which eliminates all possible excuses of not paying her a visit since we're both in Manila. Tomorrow would be soon enough. I need some sleep.

So much for a relaxing afternoon without using a phone. I'll settle with juice for now. ☺

The one with my unplanned absence

I'm absent today due to my own carelessness. I didn't hear the alarm or my sister who kept telling me she woke up before she got to work. I blamed her but in reality, I'm blaming myself; I just can't admit it to her because I was upset with the situation that I could have avoided in the first place. A friend wanted to come over and I can't say no to her after a hard day's work. I slept late instead of going to bed early for the early shift. My big mistake.



My new boss is the total opposite of my previous one. He even laughed at me and had made a joke of my absence thru text. Refreshing but I missed the usual treatment given by my original boss. I was used to the text that says, "Call the attendance hotline. Please go to work although it's late."



I like my boss, I do. He's the most lenient person I've ever met. I wish he'd sent a rude reply or even a hint of disappointment so I wouldn't feel this guilty. I would've appreciated it if he told me to go to work even on a half-day so I'll know I'm valued or something on the team.



He said he doesn't want to lose me on the team just because of attendance and I felt even worse. Guilt is a feeling I'm not that used to. Lying is another that I rarely do unless it's a necessity. As much as I'd like to lie earlier, I told him the truth. I woke up really late. Simple, straightforward and really lousy on my part. I just can't bear to come up with lies after having my 4-day vacation that was noted as SL.



Why is it that when you plan to do the right thing, you always end up doing the wrong one?


Why do I have a body-clock that doesn't stick to the schedule?


Why didn't I hear my alarm clock the entire time that it's ringing?


Am I that deaf to the sound or is my subconscious telling me something I'm not aware of in reality?


I can post as many questions here but I don't think any of those will solve my problem. The biggest question right now is--am I gonna be suspended for the additional point on my already messy attendance?

The one with droplets and heartbreak kid

Droplets

~Colbie Caillat and Jason Reeves

I'm leaving you

I'm not sure if that’s what I should do

It hurts so bad

I'm wanting you but cant go back

Trying to find, to find

That all elusive piece of mind

Stuck here somehow

Shrouded beneath my fear

And now I don’t need it

Cuz I'm walkin down this road

Alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you,

Is you my love

And my head is in a cloud of rain

And the world it seems so far away

And I'm just waiting for

The droplets, droplets

You left a mark

I wear it proudly on my chest

Above my heart (above my heart)

To remind me that I feel the best

When I'm with you

When I'm with you

To me everything is effortless

You know its true

My eyes are painted with regret

And I don’t need it

Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone

And figured all I'm thinking bout is you,

Is you my love

And my head is in a cloud of rain

And the world it seems so far away

And I'm just waiting

To fall and sink into your tears

You are like the raindrops,

The raindrops falling down on me

You left a mark (you left a mark)

She left a mark (he left)

She left (he left)

And I don’t (I don’t)

Need it (Need it)...

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This song reminded me of that scene. A deserted place with just the rain and your memories clouding your vision. I'm in one of my moods wherein I enjoy being alone...remembering the good and the bad times of my life. I'm sad and I don't have a clue. Maybe because I got to thinking about this line in one episode of a TV series: "Being content about being single is one thing. But being happy for being single is another." Well, I used to think it was the same. I am happy. There are times when I want to jump for too much happiness that no one is waiting for me at home or that I don't need to text or tell someone where I am all the time. Yet, there are times that I wish someone can pat my shoulder and hug me when I'm so fed up with work that I want to bury myself in bed for 24 hours. So...am I happy or what? I know..I'm a confused person. What's new?

Let's change the topic before I go crazy--I just watched "The Heartbreak Kid" earlier and it didn't leave a mark. At the end of the movie I thought Ben Stiller changed after realizing his mistake when he got married to the wrong girl.

I was so disappointed. Maybe some guys will always be like that.

Predictable.

I feel bad about Ben, he should sign up for other movies with a better script and stimulating story.

I know he's a good actor. Signing to be a lead in this movie may be considered an impulsive decision. Well, he may have his own reasons that we will never know.

He can be a star in an action film, like a detective/cop/fbi kind of thing. I hope he gets a film like that to make life more interesting.

Before the day ends, I hope whoever reads this can listen to the song from Spring Waltz. It's a love poem that the guy played in his piano to show his feelings for his childhood friend. It's really sweet. I downloaded it from the ever-reliable Limewire. Simply type spring waltz piano on the title and voila, you'll find it.

Sit back and relax to this classical song (I'm not a fan, but I loved it).

It will relieve you from the stressful day, promise. ;p